To: Ba Ba
Hi, dad. How are you in the Heaven? Is everything nice there? Do you see Jesus and our Heavenly father? Hope you are really doing fine up there. I am sorry not able to talk to you for the one last time. At least I am now home to see you.
I saw your body yesterday. He not really looks like you maybe because of they took out your fake teeth. I want to hold your face one more time actually but they don't let me. It's because afraid of damage your corpse. You look so thin inside the coffin. I couldn't imagine how many days you didn't have your food. How pain are you suffering when you are in hospital. Still remember the hug I gave you every time when I am leaving home? How I miss your body temperature. It's so warm. If only if I know that hug was the last, I would like to hold you in my arms longer.
Still remember when I was a kid. You like to bring me to mile 1 1/2 there to eat the grass jelly. I went back there. The grass jelly don't really taste like grass jelly anymore, the taste I only taste is the bitterness, in every bite, I taste memories. Back to the day when you teaching me in Primary 1, I was the king in the class. No one dare to bully me, I was allowed to go home earlier. You always permit me when I ask something from you. Every teacher pampers me just because you are my dad. Oh ya, and your fried rice. The taste are always nice, and I think I don't have the chance to taste it anymore. The fried rice you fry taste nice always. I know that the taste of father's love.
Mom had forgave you. Don't worry. I saw she cried for you in front of your body. That tears and that face. Some of your relatives talking bad about you and mom keep defending for you. She been busy for your funeral. All the ways up and down. Do you know when you're gone Jie Jie and Mei Mei was the 2 cries the most hard. They almost fainted out. Bi Bi and Lek Lek being a boys also cried there are no tomorrow for you. Det det, I never see his tears before until yesterday we reached before your coffin. Mom, Jie Jie, Det Det and me all burst in tears. That the first time I see him cry. I am the one cry the least actually because I know that God's grace is too much and overcome my sadness.
I think I write until here. Write to you again next time. Enjoy yourself up there ya. Until the day we meet each other in Heaven. Take care. Love you. <3
GOD BLESS YOU
Regards,
Your dearest son,
Zizi
21 JUNE 2014
